Yes, it's so long since i last blogged.
I'm back this time because i've got so much to say and i don't know where i can do it.
Friends are no longer good choice for me to turn in to, they've got their problems too.
Not going to make them feel worst by listening to my nagging and complaining.
7th Jan, my 22nd birthday.
Met up with my cousins and went for dinner at harry's bar Boat Quay.
Was a very happy dinner session, chatting about adult life, future and random stuff.
after dinner, Head over to powerhouse
Met up with another cousin and some friends.
My blood Sister came down too.
After some drinking and chatting.
I got into a fight when it's not my problem at all.
this group of people got dragged out by the bouncer,
as they resist themselves and knock into our table,
I stood there and push them away to protect my cousins and friends.
I was dragged into the fight.
The details are not important.
But the whole incident made me think a lot and really give off how i feel.
Firstly, It's fated that this will happen to me.
My cousins pull me out and talked to me.
I only insisted on one thing, my friends, my family and i shall not be bully.
I may be poor, fuck up, joker.
but Fuck hell, i can give my life to gain that respect.
I don't fucking give a damn if you're a police, president or gangster.
i don't care how you're gonna think about me after the incident,
you might think i'm childish, stupid, no brain, but i don't care.
I expressed how i feel,
My cousin, sister and i cried.
We live for a purpose?
So what's the purpose?
Everyday worrying about money, future, emo about the past????
you might think that all these are stupid , all these can be solved.
The problem is , ask yourself ,
work everyday, get the money, spend on food, get a family, go overseas.
and the cycle goes round and round again?
So what's so interesting about life??
FUck, i think i'm going crazy soon.
On a Side note,
as each day goes on, my feelings are getting stronger.
I've already thought of the worst plan for my life.
I'm gonna be straight forward to everyone, including myself.
For the lady out there, I go after you for a reason,
it's the feeling that you give me.
If just by looking at my Facebook,
you think that i'm a play boy, i'm a flirt.
You're so wrong,
and you don't worth my love
Because Facebook is a place for me to make friends for a better future,
not a place for me to find flings or flirts.....
For the pass 1 year, i only dated 2 girls and we only went out once.
Both failed.
4 ex Girlfriends, 3 ran away with another guy.
If i'm a playboy, i won't be sad for so long after each relationship.
If i'm a flirt, i think i will have double or triple up the figures to 12 or 20......
Nothing else for me to say.
a step by a step, else i'm going crazy.
Travis~ Depressed.
Bye.
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